Oh and.. just a quick apolagy for the awful spelling again!
Wow, day 4 already... I have to say that I'm very pleased at how many people have viewd this blog so far. I really do hope it does some good for others, otherwise it's just me moaning on about life and eating and that's rather a bit pointless don't you agree? So on with the show... (well blog)...
I shall start off writing about what I really should have started this blog with... a history of how this eating disorder came about. I've always had a thing about choking, for as long as I can remember. It never affected me much, I was just more 'aware' of it. I can remember that whenever I watched anything on TV to do with choking, it would make me feel really uncomfortable and I'd feel a lump in my throat as if I too were chokng! I hated the scene in Mrs. Doubtfire when Pierce Brosnan chokes at the dinner table, or the scene in Matilda when Matilda's brother chokes on a carrot. If I was watching these films on TV, I'd just turn over to another channel until that particular scene was over.
It must have been about 2 years ago when I first choked. It was on a salad sandwich and a piece of cucumber had gotten stuck in my throat (starting to feel uncomfortable just writing this). Luckily it went down with some water, my mum was on the verge of doing the Heinlick manouvre! The second time was about a year ago, it was on a chip. It just kinda sat there in my throat, blocking my airway. It eventually went down (again with some water) but an ambulance was called out (there were some police near by when it happened so they called an ambulance). Typically, I was all fine when the Ambulance came... all in a very quick and nifty 20/30 minutes... so just as well I was fine! The paramedic had to fill in a medical form and the cause of the ambulance having to come out was written down as 'trauma by chip'!
After that I became very cautious around food, I avoided easy-to-choke-on foods like peanuts and raw carrots. Then I started getting better and was eating back to normal and thehehehennnn... I went to London a few weeks back. I don't know what brought it on but I started getting these huge panic attacks which lasted until we got home, several hours later. After that my eating got worse and I just stopped all together for a couple of days, barely even consuming liquids. It's okay now though, I'm eating and drinking enough to sustain my health and keep me alive. I'm still getting better every day! Well, I hope you enjoyed reading all this depressing..ness, I really am sorry for the such a morbid post! I shall try n' make tomorrow's a bit more light-hearted with promises of more tales about me failing rather epically in the kitchen. Like when I nearly burnt the house down... twice!
And I shall end on the.. yep, you guess it... the eating/drinking scale thingymabob! (A scale from 1-10 on how confident I was eating/drinking. 1 being the lowest and 10 being the highest). And this is what I have eaten/drank this fine day:
- 1 Small Bite of A Cheeseburger (I had a really craving for it and the fam was having a BBQ: 3/10
- Actimel Drinking Yoghurt x2: 9/10
- Greek honey yoghurt: 7/10
- 2X Cup of Mily Tea: 8/10
- 1 Bite of Marmite On Toast: 2/10 (ended up in a minor panic attack)
Wow, day 4 already... I have to say that I'm very pleased at how many people have viewd this blog so far. I really do hope it does some good for others, otherwise it's just me moaning on about life and eating and that's rather a bit pointless don't you agree? So on with the show... (well blog)...
I shall start off writing about what I really should have started this blog with... a history of how this eating disorder came about. I've always had a thing about choking, for as long as I can remember. It never affected me much, I was just more 'aware' of it. I can remember that whenever I watched anything on TV to do with choking, it would make me feel really uncomfortable and I'd feel a lump in my throat as if I too were chokng! I hated the scene in Mrs. Doubtfire when Pierce Brosnan chokes at the dinner table, or the scene in Matilda when Matilda's brother chokes on a carrot. If I was watching these films on TV, I'd just turn over to another channel until that particular scene was over.
It must have been about 2 years ago when I first choked. It was on a salad sandwich and a piece of cucumber had gotten stuck in my throat (starting to feel uncomfortable just writing this). Luckily it went down with some water, my mum was on the verge of doing the Heinlick manouvre! The second time was about a year ago, it was on a chip. It just kinda sat there in my throat, blocking my airway. It eventually went down (again with some water) but an ambulance was called out (there were some police near by when it happened so they called an ambulance). Typically, I was all fine when the Ambulance came... all in a very quick and nifty 20/30 minutes... so just as well I was fine! The paramedic had to fill in a medical form and the cause of the ambulance having to come out was written down as 'trauma by chip'!
After that I became very cautious around food, I avoided easy-to-choke-on foods like peanuts and raw carrots. Then I started getting better and was eating back to normal and thehehehennnn... I went to London a few weeks back. I don't know what brought it on but I started getting these huge panic attacks which lasted until we got home, several hours later. After that my eating got worse and I just stopped all together for a couple of days, barely even consuming liquids. It's okay now though, I'm eating and drinking enough to sustain my health and keep me alive. I'm still getting better every day! Well, I hope you enjoyed reading all this depressing..ness, I really am sorry for the such a morbid post! I shall try n' make tomorrow's a bit more light-hearted with promises of more tales about me failing rather epically in the kitchen. Like when I nearly burnt the house down... twice!
And I shall end on the.. yep, you guess it... the eating/drinking scale thingymabob! (A scale from 1-10 on how confident I was eating/drinking. 1 being the lowest and 10 being the highest). And this is what I have eaten/drank this fine day:
- 1 Small Bite of A Cheeseburger (I had a really craving for it and the fam was having a BBQ: 3/10
- Actimel Drinking Yoghurt x2: 9/10
- Greek honey yoghurt: 7/10
- 2X Cup of Mily Tea: 8/10
- 1 Bite of Marmite On Toast: 2/10 (ended up in a minor panic attack)
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